People often
request private meditation instruction. They have schedule conflicts,
or are shy about participating in a group, or perhaps simply feel they'll
receive more complete instruction if we meet one on one. As a teacher
I do my best to adapt to what people want, and I do meet with people individually
when I can. However I always encourage the aspiring practitioner to come
to a class, a retreat or to regular Sangha (community) meditation. There
is something in the collective experience of community that they can't
get from meeting with me alone. This is not to say that the experience
and knowledge of the "teacher" is without value, but rather that our learning,
our transformation, takes place best within the crucible of a collective,
communal setting.
Our meditative experience, our path, the process of our unfolding are
both an individual and a collective affair. To be healthy we need to have
time alone but we also need to spend time with others. We have strong
associations with the image of the solitary seeker in a cave. This, we
think, is the true path to enlightenment, and community is just the babble
of the market place. Certainly, some of our most deeply transformational
experiences may come to us in solitude; but is it not also true that those
experiences are consummated, strengthened and authenticated within our
circle of friends, family, associates and the collective body of our society,
within our community?
Near the entrance to the meditation hall at Manzanita Village, posted
on the bulletin board, is a quotation from Shunryu Suzuki: "On retreats
we sit together, walk together, eat together. Pretty soon everybody gets
to see who you are. You might as well get to see it yourself" In other
words, it's okay to be seen. People don't stop loving you. On the contrary,
your willingness to be seen, to be authentic, vulnerable, real, lets them
love you all the more. From there it may be possible for you to see, and
so to love and accept, yourself as well as others. When we are willing
to risk making mistakes __ to admit to them, learn from them, ask and
accept forgiveness for them __ the heart, the body are softened, made
human, tenderized. This happens in a healthy community setting rather
than through the desire to manifest some sort of transcendental invulnerability
to these things.
Why do we practice the Dharma? Why practice meditation or cultivate mindfulness?
Are we seeking some sort of exotic experience? Or is it our wish to create
an environment in which transformation can take place, an environment
in which the very nature of experience is turned around, allowing us the
option to not grasp, not suffer? If it is the latter, is it not through
the recognition of our interconnectedness that transformation is possible?
Community is a process rather than a thing. When we take refuge in the
Sangha as one of the three jewels; with the Buddha and the Dharma; we
take refuge in the process of community and in our ability to participate
in it. Through our willingness to be seen, we touch each other, our teachers
and those who are yet to come.
Copyright (c) Caitríona Reed. Spring 1997
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